'I can tell you exactly the day it all went wrong
the day my mum attacked my dad with a kitchen knife. In those few, short seconds, a black hole opened up in my life and I fell right in.'
Tina McGuff's life was perfect
or so she thought. Living in Dundee with her devoted parents and three younger sisters, she was a happy, healthy and confident thirteen-year-old. But all that changed in one horrifying act of revenge and Tina's world collapsed overnight. Terrified, lost and confused, she turned to the one thing she thought she could control
food. And so began the biggest fight of her life.
Tina's life-or-death struggle with anorexia is told with devastating honesty in this extraordinary account of a girl at war with herself. Through her years in and out of psychiatric wards, Tina takes us to some of the darkest places of the mind. But in the end her courage, conviction and sheer determination win out. It took Tina seconds to snap and a lifetime to recover
but today, as a passionate campaigner for mental health, she is living proof that there is always a reason to hope that one day, things will get better.
Tina McGuff experienced a very violent event and descended into anorexia from 13 years old and almost lost her life. After a very successful 20 years, raising children, learning to fly, and promoting huge bands like Biffy Clyro and Snow Patrol, she is now an ardent mental health campaigner. Tina works full time in an accounts team and also guest lectures to student nurses regarding anorexia and psychosis.
This book is inspiring and empowering. Tina takes you on a journey through her darkness and into the light, offering much needed insight and hope to those on a similar path. Thank you Tina for sharing your story with such open honest and clarity. You are a gift.
Author & public speaker - Fi Munro
This book was exactly what I needed when I needed it. It was there for me when I felt alone. It gave me hope when I thought all hope was lost. So raw, honest, and inspiring. More books like this need to be written and shared. Thank you, Tina.
Model - Haven Marah
Mother, Grandmother, and speaker sharing the lessons she has passed on to her daughters around working hard, spreading kindness, and finding your own positivity, confidence, and beauty - I read Tina McGuff's survival story with awe. She is truly a war-survivor. A veteran in the battle against mental illness in the form of anorexia. Like many of us, her feud takes place on the battlefield of her mind against an invisible enemy who strikes with words of inadequacy, failure, and fear. In a time where we are all struggling to understand mental illness, McGuff's courageous and candid story speaks to what it is like to face down an enemy that lurks in the hidden places of your mind and destroys you from within. This timely and important story is universal. For who among us has not heard an inner-voice whisper "You're not good enough" and wondered if it wasn't true?
. - Linda Graham
What is exceptional about this book is that it's not only a heartwarming true story and a gripping read, but that it manages to be both while providing hope for so many by helping us understand so much about the psychology of this terrible disease.
Musician - Gary Clark
Congrats on so many things, will keep reading your harrowing yet compelling tale. My pleasure Tina - your story is shocking and affirming in equal measure and I am sure a big help to many people who find themselves in similar situations. Congrats again.
Comedian, Author and Broadcaster - Dom Holland
What an amazing book written with such honesty - you are such a strong and inspiring lady, thank you for sharing your story, I am sure it was not easy to be so open and honest but the help and hope it will give anyone going through a tough time is so important.
Author and broadcaster - Tana Ramsay